You be the giver and I'll be the taker


It's really hard to change something and even more so when you've been doing things a ceetain way for so long. It doesn't matter if what you're currently doing isn't working or if you know the change is needed. You will always, at the very least, subconsciencly resent the change. As humans we have a preconceived notion that all change is bad.

Yesterday I stood my ground in hopes that it will result in a change for the better. Everytime there was an issue I allowed it to be dropped without a resolution. It would then be burried and brought up with the next issue, making it appear to be bigger than before. I was giving my forgiveness without an apology or any actions that should follow said apology.

I'm worried that by taking a stand it will cost me something I care about a lot. It was a hard thing to do and I instantly felt bad. In the long run though I think that it was for the best. If something doesn't change soon what I have wont be worth having.

Later Days
Santi