And So It Ends...


Not only are we coming to the end of another calendar year but a decade as well. In a few days 2009 will be a thing of the past. '09 has been a rough year for a lot of people, my self included. I'm sure a lot of people are eager to put it behind them. 2009 has taught me that life is anything but a cake walk and that you can be thrown a curve ball without a moments notice. Whether you catch that curve ball or drop it or completely miss it or have it hit you in the face is not the point though. It's about whether you shake it off and get ready to catch the next one and pull your self into the fetal position and cry, waiting for someone to come help you get back on your feet.

In 2009 I lost friends, was broke, constantly looking for a job, had multiple almost break ups with my boyfriend along with a bunch of other unpleasant issues and dilemmas. I learned that you should not depend on anyone but your self and the importance of Independence, self reliance, knowing who your real friends are and having a sense of humour. If you can't laugh at your self and the mess you're in than it's going to make your bad day seem a lot longer than it needs to be.

Even though 2009 was basically cleaning up one mess after another, it wasn't all bad. I did some pretty rad things in 2009. I spent the weekend in Niagara Falls for my birthday with some of my closest friends. I went to Detroit with Allan and our car got stuck in the snow on 8 Mile. I hung out on the beach in Grand Bend a few times this summer with friends, one of those trips I was able to defeat Allan in a game of air hockey. I saw A LOT of concerts, far too many to list. I was there for blink-182's first Canadian show on their reunion tour. I made a few new friends and reconnected with old ones. Spent time in bars, both gay and straight. Saw both the world and people in a different light. I went to my first +19 plus show and tweeted like a teenie. I bought my first drink at a show, that happened to be all ages. I told far to many 'That's What She Said' jokes and most importantly, lived life.

As horrible as people claim 2009 was I have no regrets. I lived life. My uncle once said to me something along the lines of this: I am where I am because I made a series of choices. He's a pretty wise and rad dude, if I say so myself. Sometimes you need to make mistakes and get your hands dirty to end up where you want to be. I may not be exactly where I want to be or have all the answers yet, but I'm 21 years old. I'm not suppose to be any where close to being near the finish line.

To all that read my blog I wish you all a happy holiday season. I hope that you all have high hopes for 2010. I wish nothing but the best for each and every one of you. Don't be afraid to get your hands dirty, take a risk, or take that leap into the unknown. It may have a huge pay off in the end. Don't let anything stand in your way. Open that business, go to school, record a demo, post a blog, sell your painting. Grab your dreams and run with it.

Thank you to everyone who have been there to support me and accept me for the mess that I am. Sarah H, Erin, Holly, Mom, Dad, Uncle Peter, Aunt Theresa, Allan, Tyson, Jesse, Nicki, Ryan Isemeyer, Ashely... You guys are why I am here today in one piece. Thank You.

Love Peace Happiness

Later Days
Santi

His girl Friday's Weekend Kick Off Song




Yesterday I had to stop at the mall to pick up my boyfriend's xmas gift I had ordered. i had my iPod on and turned up loud. Walking through the mall I felt on top of the world and nothing could touch me. I was wearing a pretty rad top I had jst bought, make up done. I just felt amazing. Afraid of loosing the moment I kept repeating the song.


For thoughs of you expecting something to put you in the holiday spirit... I leave you with this



Happy Holidays

Santi
Later Days

Xmas



It's always crazy this time of year. I feel like I'm always on the go. Because I was too busy living life and forgot the WKOS you get a Monday night/Tuesday morning video. Enjoy




Later Days
Santi


PS I just watched a bunch of Fred videos. Shoot me.

His girl Friday's Weekend Kick Off Song




Hola Readers

It's hella cold outside. It's snowey and and windy and cold. I have a bunch of errands to run, christmas shopping included. I'm been putting it all of as I've been listening to the 90's nooner with Josie Dye on 102.1 The Edge. I sent an e-mail in hopes that she would play my song but with only 8 minutes left it's not looking for good.

I've been working like crazy but I wont see the fruits of that labour for another two weeks. I've been stressed out and today is my only day off. After running my errands I will probably hang out in my apartment, get drunk and watch movies on tv. If you have any better ideas please send them my way, as I am having a great hair day. Perfect hair actually.I hate when you look hot and have no where to go. It bums me out.

I got a bunny. He's all black and fairly small. I named him Cooter, but I feel like he shouls have a more bad ass name. Let me know what you think.

Back to the topic at hand. I'm digging this 90's punk/rock/music thing. To try and make the best of this waste of a day I am showering you with rock music.



I'm also giving you Say It Aint So by Weezer just because it's such a shitty day otu there that you might as well have some bad ass music as a pick me up.

Catch ya on the flip side home slices

later Days
Santi

I'll Say A Little Prayer For You



I am not a religious person by any means. If I was going to adapt anything it would probably be buhdism. My boyfriend on the other hand has a strong religous upbringing.

Not realising we were suppose to get a snow storm he drove to Detroit tonight to see Dashboard Confessionals play an acoustic show. He is now stranded in London, contemplating sleeping in his car because of road conditions. He's still two hours away from home. (Mississauga)

He has requested that I pray that he gets home safely. I can send out positive thoughts and direct positive energy in his direction but I'm not sure that I have it in me to pray. It's not that I don't want him to get home safely, I'm just concerned that a prayer from me wouldn't count for anything. I'm not exactly high up on God's answer list.

I believe that there is something that comes after death, and if there's a god up there that I will have to answer to one day than that's fine by me. I just haven't been the most loyal of subjects during my almost 22 years of life on this planet. Why would s/he bother to listen to me when I've done nothing but doubt their existance?

For Allan's benefit though, I would like to politely request and hope for his safe journey home. God, or who ever answers theses thoughs and wishes people send out to the cosmic void and beyond, please keep him safe. If anyone reading this could send out a positive though for him it would be appreciated.

Later Days
Santi

His girl Friday's Weekend Kick Off Song


Saviour - LIGHTS


I love LIGHTS. She's playing in Kitchener Saturday night and if you have the chance I reccomend going if you have the $20 to spare. I've posted songs from LIGHTS before so there's no need for me to go on about her amazingness. Enjoy

Later Days
Santi