I Went To War With Swine Flu... And It Won!













So, maybe I wasn't really killed by the swine flu and came back as a Zombie and really just wanted to show off my pro makeup abilities. I wanted to test it out to make sure it looked good before I committed to being a Zombie for Halloween. I can proudly say that I did the whole thing myself, even the wound! (Liquid Latex, paper towel, makeup and fake blood).

I did, however, have the flu and was really sick. It was a horrible experience that I would not wish onto anyone else. My whole body ached, I had terrible head aches, I was freezing cold but my skin would burn if you touched it. I had a sore throat and nausea. Then I got a runny nose and a terrible cough. I was gagging on flem and then throwing up as a result. My ribs were in so much pain from coughing so much. It was brutal.

I'm about a week in and today is the first day that I can honestly say I feel like myself. I still have a bit of a sore throat and a barking cough, but I'm well enough to return to my place of employment tomorrow. Doctors are recommending that if you have the flu that you don't rush to their offices, hospitals or clinics to seek treatment unless it's severe. They're advising people to stay home and ride it out.

I typically don't get sick. I have allergies, or I'll get a cold every now and then, but I'm even immune to hang overs. It's a beautiful thing. To get the flu was such a foreign concept to me. Before the worst had come I was on a bus in Waterloo Friday morning on my way to a job interview. I need to cough so I covered my mouth with my had and did just that. An elderly woman in front of me glared at me and shook it her head at me. When it was time for me to exit the bus she cornered me in my seat and blocked the aisle so know one could exit the bus. She points her finger at me and scolds me for not covering my mouth the proper way when I cough.

The whole bus is now glaring at me with the old lady who must be in her 70's. I inform her that I did in fact cover my mouth as I always do. She gives another dirty look and finally exits the bus. For what ever reason her need to reprimand me seemed very offensive. I always cover my mouth and use hand sanitizer right after coughing or sneezing. Apparently the correct way is to cough into the nook behind your elbow. I didn't think it mattered if I was using sanitizer.

I was furious that this woman felt the need to center me out in front of so many people. I instantly text messaged the bazaar story to my friends and family informing them of what had happened and being the horrible person that I am I followed it with "I hope I gave her swine flu" only finding it amusing because I assumed it was just a cold.

I get home that afternoon and am sicker than sick and feel like death. I don't know if this is a result of karma or not but I wanted to set the record straight for my friend karma. I did not honestly wish for this old woman to get swine flu or to contract it through me. I would not honestly wish any type of flu on anyone.

Later Days
Santi

Tigger You're Crazy! (RIP)



As you all know, I am a youtubers. Not only do I make videos of my own but I also watch a lot of videos. MattG124 is one of the youtubers that I subscribe too. He's helarious and lives not too far from me. MattG124 had an interesting cat named Tigger. Tigger was cool because when you talked to him he would actually talk back. He was just a rad, big, fluffy cat that just screamed awesome. Videos featuring Tigger were always hilarious to watch. The video I have posted above was actually featured on a tv show somewhere.

It's been brought to my attention that Tigger has recently passed away. MattG124 posted a rad in memory of video on his channel. Tigger was like his best friend, so he's pretty down about the loss of his pal. Tigger seemed like an awesome cat on camera and will be remembered by youtubers for years to come.

Later Days
Santi

Umbrella




ill Scarlet is a punk/reggae band from Mississauga, Ontario. I've seen them play a few times, most recently when they opened for blink 182, and have never been disappointed. I just fond this cover they did of Rihanna's Umbrella and thought I would share it with all of you.

These guys have a very fun and laid back feel to their music. I think that they have three albums out right now... if the third one isn't out yet it will be soon. I could google it, but I wont.

Later Days
Santi

His girl Friday's Weekend Kick Off Song



Happy Friday Readers! The weather is pretty depressing here, its cold and raining and it isn't doing a good job of pumping me up for another weekend, but what ever. This week I give you My Heart by Paramore.

I can't decide if I'm a Paramore fan or not. They put on a good live show and I have their first two cds but I don't usually listen to them. There was something about their singer, Hayley, that just didn't sit right with me. What ever it was I think I'm over it though because I've started listening to them again and seem to be enjoying their music.

To most of you this is jsut more of the same, but take it or leave it. I don't aim to please when I post these songs. I do it because I can. Enjoy.

Later Days
Santi

I'm just a girl.


I am a different person with different people. I'm a cynic, a romantic, a talker, a listener, a lush, shy, out going, loud, quiet, smart, dumb, hot, frumpy and a million other things but never all at once. Does this make me fake or real?

Later Days
Grace Tschirhart

If You Only Knew...


I'm not as strong as I appear to be. It's killing me to stand my ground. Almost every part of me wants to let you back in whole heartedly, no questions asked. My head tells me that if I do that it will happen again. You will continue to hurt me the way you do because you know that you can.

How much longer until you clue in and make things right? I don't choose to be short or cold with you. I do it out of necessity. I need to know you mean what you say. I need to know that you are true and genuine. I need to put my friends minds at ease. I need to know that you can be trusted with me.

Later Days
Santi

Lifers are dead.

People are selfish by nature. Gone are the days where you committed your self to one person for the rest of your life. Through hell or high water you would stick by that person. You'd wait out the bad times because the good always surpassed it.

A life sentence is 25 years, and very rarily is that full sentence ever actually served. People get bored or decide that the burden of looking out for someone else is too much and they throw in the towel. No one is willing to fight for anything anymore. Why bother?

I've learned that it's every man for himself out there. No one else is going to have your best interest at heart. No one is going to take your happiness into account if it effects theirs. No one is going to fight for you. You will never mean so much to someone that they would give anything to be with you. You're not worth holding onto. There will always be another you. You're a dime a dozen.

Look out for your self. Make your self happy. Chase your own dreams. I'm starting to believe that love is truly extint. All we're left with is lust, and that wears off rather quickly. The only person you can always depend on is your self.

Later Days
Santi

Rest In Peace

Molly 1995 - 2009

Molly was a big part of our family for 13 years of her life. She was will always be remembered fondly as a member of our family. As much as I said I hated it, I'll miss seeing her sleeping on the end of my bed or in a pile of my clean clothes. I find it really hard to write this and I don't know why. She will be greatly missed. Good bye Molly.

The Adventures of Captain Love Lies and Her Space Ship

I caved when I should have stood my ground. I was gullible and naieve. They are happy and have gotten their way, but they wont feel that way for long. It feels like the blame has been wrongfully shifted to me. They see them selves in the clear, but I am the only one seeing clearly here. For the first time my vision is 20/20.

I've taken a step back to check out my surroundings. I think I'm going to get back into my space ship and blast off to another galaxy. This one isn't stable. The air is thick with deception and destruction. Every man for himself clearly hasn't worked for this planet so I'll find one that values a good partnership.

Nothing is perfect but this planet is beyond saving. There isn't a worth while life form for miles. I'm sure at one point it was a beautiful place to live, but it's inhabitants took it for granted. Now they can live with the mess they've created. I guess it's true when they say you don't know a good thing until it's gone.

Here come the beings of this planet. I better blast off to avoid being captive. These beings suck the life out of you with a straw and consume your sould for dessert.

Always and Forever

Captain Love Lies

His girl Friday's Weekend Kick Off Song




Hello friends, family, and fellow readers. This week I give you When I Grow Up by Mayday Parade. It's actually a cover of a Pussycat Dolls song done for the Pop goes Punk2 cd. It's a cool twist on a song that in it's original form as the potentional to drive you to drink because it's played so frequently. Mayday Parade actually just released a new album that's pretty decent. They're also co-headling the AP Presents Fall Ball Tour right now with The Academy Is... I'd tell you to get tickets but it's sold out. I'll let you know how it goes though.




There is something about punk bands covering pop songs that makes me excited. This song here is off of the same Pop Goes Punk cd. A Static Lullaby covering Toxic by Britney Spears. I love it. I'm batteling the same cold most of my friends are so you probably are too. So to cheer both you and me up, there are two songs this week.

Later Days
Santi

You be the giver and I'll be the taker


It's really hard to change something and even more so when you've been doing things a ceetain way for so long. It doesn't matter if what you're currently doing isn't working or if you know the change is needed. You will always, at the very least, subconsciencly resent the change. As humans we have a preconceived notion that all change is bad.

Yesterday I stood my ground in hopes that it will result in a change for the better. Everytime there was an issue I allowed it to be dropped without a resolution. It would then be burried and brought up with the next issue, making it appear to be bigger than before. I was giving my forgiveness without an apology or any actions that should follow said apology.

I'm worried that by taking a stand it will cost me something I care about a lot. It was a hard thing to do and I instantly felt bad. In the long run though I think that it was for the best. If something doesn't change soon what I have wont be worth having.

Later Days
Santi

Just A Thought...


Life is difficult, upsetting, confusing and sometimes painful. Sometimes I think that maybe I wasn't cut out for this.

The Cat Came Back...



For the last few days I have herd strange noises coming from the laundry room. Boxes falling or something. When I go to investigate there is nothing there.
Last night I came upstairs to use the washroom. Our yorkie mix, Milo, followed me upstairs. There is a cat sitting at our backdoor. He chases it down stairs. Assuming it's our cat Molly, I think it's nothing and procede to head up to the washroom.

As I head up the second set of stairs I see Molly, sleeping on the stairs. I'm assuming this cat is hiding in our laundry room but I can't find it. I swear I saw it though. I'm not crazy... I think.

Later Days
Santi

I Love LIGHTS!




I am a huge LIGHTS fan. I've been listening to her for about a year now. I follow her on twitter: @lightsnoise I just think her music is amazing and think she is amazing. I love her style. She's playing a show in Hamilton at the end of November on my day off and my friend Nicki said she'd go. I'm insanely excited for LIGHTS. <3

http://www.iamlights.com
http://www.myspace.com/lights
http://www.facebook.com/lights
http://www.youtube.com/user/lights

Later Days
Santi

His girl Friday's Weekend Kick Off Song


Hey friends. It's Friday, so that must mean it's time for your weekly dose of awesome music. I was going to do Spaceman by Bif Naked in honor of Sarah and her new futurist car. It's insane, you don't even need a key to start it. I've had this song stuck in my head for a good part of the week though and am obsessing over it...

Every Man Has His Molly - Say Anything

This song get me pumped up and in a mood to rock out. After a long and stressful work week you just want to cu loose and have a good time. Say Anything certainly knows how to bring the awesomeness.

Later Days
Santi

Make Me Feel Like Someone Else



Some times I day dream about starting over from scratch. I'd move some where completely new where I didn't know a single soul. I would cut and dye my hair and buy new clothes. I could change my name and all of my contact information. Get new e-mail addresses, delete my myspace and facebook. I'd sever ties with everyone that was connected to that girl that I left behind. I'd leave everything, both good and bad and just disappear. I would make new first impressions and be the girl that I wanted to be, not the one that people expected me to be.

I'd miss my music and concerts though, and some of my friends and family aren't too bad either. I lack the courage that is needed to follow through. One day though, one day.

The Life of a Sailor

Red sky in morning; sailors warning
Red sky at night; sailors delight!

The Beginning of the End or the End of the Beginning?

Yesterday I ventured out on an hour and a half journey by bus to visit a friend in Kitchener for the day. On occaison I like to people watch, with an hour and a half with nothing to do but sit, it tends to be a legitimate pass time. The bus always proves to be the perfect setting for people watching as there are always some colourful characters looking to get where they need to be.

On my journey home though I got to thinking about my life versus the lives of my fellow passengers. I worry that in twenty years time, I will still be in the same position as some of the other passengers. When does it stop being exceptable to be riding the bus and making little to no money? I'm 21 but I'm not a student. I'm not doing anything to better my life in anyway.

I'm scared that this is as good as it gets for me. Working entry level jobs, having little to no money with a good chunk of debt and nothing to show for it. Someday I would like to own a house. You can't own a house when you make $10.50 an hour. You can't get a higher paying job unless you go to college. You can't go to college unless you have money to pay for it.

I'm 21 and most 21 year olds don't worry about these things. They work their entry level positions to get their $600 pay cheques. The problem is that theese positions do not have room for growth and opportunity. Before you know it 21 becomes 31 and you're in the same spot working the same kind of shit jobs you were working when you were fresh out of high school. I do not want to be working in a call center for the rest of my life.

Today I start my new job, which is in a call center. I haven't worked in 5 months and I'm looking forward to gaving some change to jingle in my pocket. I have to wonder though if this job was the light at the end of a long and dark tunnel or if it's really just the beginning of the end.

Later Days

Santi

Jon and Kate Plus Hate


I used to be a huge fan of the hit TLC show Jon and Kate Puls 8. I thought their kids were adorable and loved watching them every week on my television screen. I have seen every episode of the show with an exception of the newest season.

Like many I assumed that Kate was a piece of work and couldn't imagine how Jon had put up with her for so long. She was naggy and often talked down to her husband on national television. I sympathized with him and even found him to be an attractive man.

When they first announced their divorce I was very skeptical and assumed it was just a big hoax to bring in ratings for the show. It seems to be pretty real though as they are no longer living togeather in their Pennsylvania home with their children at the same time. In addition to that their lives have been made even more public than they already were. Every time I turn around Jon or Kate have been speaking to the media about their relationship and the details of their seperation. It used to be that Jon was the quiet one but it seems that he and his new 22 year old girlfriend (who is a year older than me, might I add) seem to be quite the fame whores.

I am sick and tired of seeing Jon's face every time I decide to go to http://www.perezhilton.com. It seems that the man just cannot keep his mouth shut and what comes out of it doens't seem to be too inteligent either. He has been shamelessly partying with younger girls who are the same age as college students and parading about like a single man with no responsibilities, while his soon to be ex wife is only ever seen with her eight children. It could just be that the media is very one sided in Kate's favour but when your fame is owed to being a father of eight I feel that for the sake of your kids that keeping a low profile is a good idea.

It seems to me that both Jon and Kate are treating their children like a business instead of a family. It would have been nice to see them put the show on hold for a year and work out their problems in private. That way they would have the opportunity to come to the show if they felt it was the best option for their family with a new take on things. I just don't see how it could possibly be beneficial for their children to see their parents trashing each other and acting like immature high school students all over the internet.

To top it all I recieved an e-mail from my boyfriend last night that I read this morning. Apparently for the low price of $40 you can now own a porn parady of the show entitled "Jon and Kate Fuck Eight". The premise of the porn flick is that Jon and Kate go to couples therepy and are instucted to have sex with a whole mess of people to save their marriage. (http://www.popcrunch.com/jon-kate-plus-8-porn-parody/) I'm sure their kids will look forward to one day seeing that as well.

Later Days
Santi

His girl Friday's Weekend Kick Off Song




Josey - Hey Monday


For thoughs of you who don't know, I start a new job on Tuesday. The way the scedueling goes, this will be my last weekend off for awhile. This song is fun and upbeat and is all about a girl who likes to party. The weather may be gloomy but hopefully this song will lift your spirits a bit and put you in a mood to start your weekend off the right ways.

www.myspace.com/heymonday